Wow! This is an interesting chapter as it describes the evolution in terms of how I process and encounter what I perceive to be real. It describes different stages of conscious development. I would like to say my goal is to reach the unitive stage but in reality it really doesn’t really matter as Judy writes, wherever I am at this point in time is the right stage.
So where am I, I ask myself. I will try to relate my story in the context of conscious evolution and see if it makes any sense. Before I lost Judy( her physical self), I believe my ego dominated who I was. My ego led me to believe that I was separate from all that is, I was not connected to the whole, I was not connected to the universe. So, really, my ego self led me and I lived in those illusions. Can you imagine that?
It was some weeks after Judy left, that I began to read and search the depth of her work and review the work of all the wonderful authors available in her study. You can imagine the list, Marx Hubbard, Swimme, Tolle, Rupp, O’Murchu, Berry,Wilber, Rahner …..on and on.
So, in reading Judy’s books and listening to different talks she had given along with studying some of her favorite authors (of course I have a long way to go) I believe my consciousness began to awaken. In Echart Tolle’s book, The New Earth, he said sometimes when a loved one is lost, “this can lead to a collapse of the ego, since ego is identification with form. When there is nothing to identify with anymore, who are you”? This is exactly what happened to me. For a very short time, my ego collapsed and I was open to a greater consciousness. I was open to find out who I was. I also believe Judy helped me to connect to her morphogenic field. When Judy was alive, I supported her so she could write and through her work become “awakened”. I believe Judy is now helping me so that I can awaken and evolve.
So how am I different? A difficult question but here is how I see it. I am now able to see things as the observer. When a thought or a problem comes up, I can look at it from an observers point of view and stay focused in the present moment. By staying in the present moment, my consciousness is aware of who I am and it is through this lens, not through my ego, that I focus with a conscious presence. I now know that I am not separate from all that is but I am connected to all! This is a life transformation! By seeing things through this lens, a transformation has begun. I am now capable of moving forward in the evolving process.
Again, I am not a writer, nor an expert, I am merely a person who realizes that our planet is evolving to something greater than it now is and I am a part of what is evolving, I can choose to co-create in concert with the universal intelligence in this process of evolution.
The question this week is: what do you see as emerging capacities in your life.
These are some of my thoughts, very interested in yours.