Who Am I…..a story…

There once was a man who lived.  This person wasn’t rich nor poor. Throughout his life, he would always strive to have more. He had a family, raised children, bought a house and managed to have vacations. But…none of it seemed to be enough.  There was always that inkling to have more. There was not a feeling of accomplishment, no feeling of peace,no feeling that there was ever enough. It was these thoughts that robbed him of being truly happy.  One day in a moment of reflection, he went deep inside into his heart.  He kind of left the world and existed  in a state of bliss…only for an instant…but in that instant he had a glimpse of heavenly love. In that instant… he felt that there was enough. No need to strive for more but there was a satisfaction to savor that one instant to “just be.” In that moment, all he had to do, was  to take a deep breath and just breath.  In that instant there was an ever flowing feeling of being in pure existence allowing peace, love and serenity to fill his heart. There was no need to strive but a time to be in gratitude for all the blessings of love in his life.  In that instant of gratitude there was actually a feeling of completion…In that same instant, he knew that there was an all encompassing love, there was a loving God whose Grace filtered out all the doubt, all the feelings of inadequacies, all the past messages of not being good enough, and filtered out thoughts of the the past and future so that right now, in this instant  there was that trans-formative moment to just “be” and know who he was…he was love and in that instant…. there was that moment!

Like the man in the story, I believe we can all take a moment, just the click of a finger and we can go beyond the world  and take a moment to enter our heart, to enter a place of gratitude. We can take that moment, and with the Grace of God  move into our heart where peace, happiness and the truth of who we are lies.

For me, getting off the merry go round and filtering out all the noise and entering the quietness of the soul is a good place to be. I just need to take the time to get there. It takes but a moment.




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Who Am I?

This blog began with the passing of my wife, Judy in 2011. Judy was a writer and the last book she published was called, Field of Compassion. I really had a difficult time understanding her works until after she passed.  One day I started reading Field of Compassion and I was understanding it…at least understanding for me in my life what the words meant. One day I felt Judy’s spirit and she suggested that others may want to tag along with the reading so she..her spirit suggested a blog. So, I proceeded to share my views each week for 12 weeks (a chapter a week) and others were free to join in…that my friends is how this blog began. I feel at this time I would like to refresh this blog to a new time, to now, and how my life and spirituality has evolved.

I needed a place to pour my energy at that time in my life and the blog was a good place for that. From 2011 until now the way I view life and spirituality has changed. I won’t go into my old life but I will share my life now and if any one would like to join in, there are no right or wrong ways as we each have our own path to understanding who we are.

I have come to believe the purpose of my life is to…Be Happy, To Love All People, and To Know Who I Am! Then the question persists…what holds me back from this quest! I am learning that my past and my mind…ego…and the material desires of my senses holds me back, holds me back from being happy.You see, lets say I want something, like a new I Phone. Lets say I get it…and I am now happy, but not because I have the phone but because the desire to have it is gone. When the desire is not there, I am happy and content. For me, I am becoming aware that being free of material desires quiets the mind, silences the ego and allows me to become aware of a quiet consciousness which brings peace and understanding of all that is. Being free of those desires brings me closer to God, closer to the love that I am, the love we all are.


Think about this.  I know that when I am sleeping, I am happy and content. I have peace and rest. When I am sleeping soundly, there is no mind, when the mind is quiet I seem to be in a different time…in fact no time…I am just being…in quietness…no thinking of the past…no projecting the future…I am in only what is now, and that now relates to consciousness. I also believe that I am not my body. My body will (ok, probably is) become old and it will soon be in the graveyard…my mind, ego, is certainly not me and it will go with the body…but what is Me will always be! So, Who Am I? The question “who am I,” is a question I use to bring myself to “self inquiry.” I respectfully share that I was led to the quest of “Self Inquiry” from others…namely the ideas of SRI H. W. L. Poonja (Papaji) and Ramana Maharshi,  Dr. Joe Dispenza along with the writings of Judy. All have led me to this important question. Also, I could not have come to this place of self inquiry without the help of my spiritual director, Carolyn. So, all I have mentioned were brought to my life and I am grateful to be on this quest and to share it with anyone who resonates with the quest of  “self inquiry.”

For what ever reason, even if this blog is for only me, this new phase of the blog has begun.
I will continue to publish and write even if just for me however any one who finds value in this is free to read or comment.






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What Judy Knew that I Didn’t and What She Taught Me Since She Left.

It is almost the two year anniversary of Judy’s departing. I would like to honor her with this transmission.   I would like to share my observation of Judy when she knew in her heart that she would not survive her illness. First let me say she was the most courageous person I have ever known….in many ways. And, again, this is my interpretation of her final weeks.   Judy knew that who she was-was more than her dying body.  She had a sign on our refrigerator that is still there. It reads, “To know ourselves has always been the greatest of all lessons. For, if we knew ourselves, we will know God. And in knowing God, we will become like God.”(St. Clement of Alexandria.) Even in her last weeks, she walked her talk. She stayed focused on the present moment. The present moment was all she had. In those last weeks she looked me in the eyes and told me she had begun her transition. So, her body was still here but her spirit was moving on to her next life. The divine spirit, her essence  was being allowed to soar.  It was being free from her physical body.

In her book, Field of Compassion, she stated,”Perhaps the most freeing insight that has come in the last few months is that it is helpful to throw away “beliefs.”  To me beliefs tend to be mental constructs, assertions about reality, not reality itself. My beliefs have tended to come from my head, not my heart.”  Think of what Judy is saying! Her time on earth is ending, she is looking death in the eye and realizes the most freeing exercise at this time in her life is to throw away old belief systems. She says her old beliefs came from her head and not her heart!

Since Jude’s departure, I have felt her spirit very deeply within myself. Since her physical leaving, she has brought people, books, dreams, and unexplainable inner knowledge that has transformed……..my old beliefs….. to a new awakening.

I, like Judy, used to see the divine, the “Holy Mystery”, God, as being something outside of me. But I now know the divinity is within me. In this realization, the truth has gone far from anything in the mind, IT LIVES IN THE HEART. Each morning I greet mother earth, father sky, I send my love, receive their love and then proceed into the heart. It is within the heart that I am one with all that is, it is within the heart that Jude has taught me lies the truth. The truth that sets us free, the truth that our divinity is within. This is what has transformed my life, it is the reality of truth. This is the love that Jude has shown to me. Ahaa moment, what greater love than this. Thanks Jude.

Thanks to all of you for allowing me to share my heart. The following video is a little different than usual but I believe it will awaken the heart and allow us all to “go within”.


Additional last minute thoughts: I feel a new vibration, a new energy that is penetrating our planet. For me there are two words that stand out, those two words are PURGE and RENEW. I am to purge out of me all the old energy, old dreams, old ideas, old addictions, and old thoughts. I am to renew within me: the new energy, new dreams, new ideas, and be open to new relationships. For me, my higher self is telling me this is it! An opportunity to tap into the new energy and all I need to do is allow it to happen. Dream it, see it, and allow it to happen!

The last few days have been remarkable. I feel that my higher self is guiding me to engage in my work outs as a purging ritual.  I am learning to see the sweat that runs out of me as a sign of me purging my “old ways” to make room for the new. I am welcoming this cleansing ritual.   It was actually a personal ceremony. Some of you may want to have your own personal ceremony, where you purge out the old and allow in the new. It is a very exhilarating experience.

I have really rambled on, please know that I am sending out good energy to all. I invite you to take ten minutes of quiet to watch the video below. It can lead you to the truth in your heart. I welcome your comments to this blog site as they will help others in their journey.

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From Inside (3)

The question I pose to myself is what is the life I am meant to live? Am I living it, and if not, why not. More important, what is the meaning of my life? To answer this question, I went deep within, into my heart. This really gets to the core question: “Why am I here? What is my purpose?” Hard to believe, here I sit, 65 years young, and I am still asking my self this question. The difference is that now I know how to find the answer….the answer lies within.

As you know, I am not a writer, I am a journeyer who is just beginning to discover who I am.  It has been a little over a year since Judy’s physical body has left, but somehow her presence has been greatly present and it is hard to believe how my life and awareness of this life has expanded. I am an ordinary person like you on the journey of experiencing life and the present moment in a way that opens and expands the consciousness of the love that we are.

When I go within, I know that the creator of all,  or the essence of all I am lives within me. My question then is ” What is the purpose of my life?” Should I focus on job? Wealth. Relationships? Family? The aha moment! Love….I am love, the essence of who I am is love. So, what does that really mean? How does my life change, or does it change? The challenge of course is to put all this into words….how does one place love into words…I will go in and give it my best expression.

When I dig deep, really deep within, here is what I see and hear. I need to see this world, this human experience with new eyes, I need to realize that I am energy, and this energy can make a difference. It can be used or not used. I need to realize that my essence, the energy of who I am can change the planet..for good or not good. I am not a scientist, I don’t have a good understanding of energy, all I really know is that it can make things move, it is a force…wow…energy can expand and become powerful. So, what do I do with this energy, how can I activate it, how will it change the planet, how will I be affected?

I believe the way I activate love into the world is by first loving myself. I need to truly love me. How can I love anything or any other divine being if I cannot love myself. So, I will go quietly within and focus on loving Phil Cannato, love the love that I am.

In thinking of loving myself,  I was greatly impacted recently by a quote by the Dalai Lama. When asked what surprised  him most about humanity, he answered…. Man.

“Because he sacrifices his health in order to make money. Then he sacrifices money to recuperate his health. And then he is so anxious about the future that he does not enjoy the present; the result being that he does not live in the present or the future; he lives as if he is never going to die, and then he dies having never really lived”.

Wow! That impacted me. I’m sure Judy made sure that I came across that quote. So, loving myself is part of living life. It’s about stripping away all the junk and in this present moment, in this next breath, enjoying me, who I am. It’s about love (who I am). It’s about feeling the spirit that’s trapped in this body, being connected to mother earth and father sky. It’s about seeing each person brought into my life with new eyes, seeing the wonderment of each of them. It’s about the miracle of being in the present moment. It’s about allowing the energy of love that lies within to manifest itself, allowing it to blossom, to expand and become a force. It’s about taking this life we have and “really living life fully.”

I believe that if each of us can go within, the result will be we will love ourselves and by loving ourself, that energy of love will penetrate mankind and change the planet. But, it all begins by each of us going with in, into the deepest part of who we are and LOVING who we are.



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From Inside

Over the past few months, I have taken time to go “within.” On occasion, I feel led to share with you what I have found. This is one of those times.

The basic premise in Judy’s writings is that we are all connected. We are connected to all life. As individuals we are all one, I am you and you are me, we are the universe. We are all life.  As I reflected upon this, I thought of my relationship with Judy and any relationships I will have in the future. I reflected upon the fact that I am the universe, but why can’t this reality come alive for me?  What makes me able to see the words but not realize who I truly am?

I went deep within my heart , as I believe the creator and the answer I seek are within me. I reflected upon our relationship (Judy’s and mine) and my relationship to the universe. I know that we are connected. I am one with the universe and  Judy’s spirit and my spirit are connected via our heart and our love.  There were times however that we didn’t see this connection; it’s like we were opposites. Our lives and paths didn’t seem to connect, we disagreed. So, I went deep within to understand why we experienced this sense of separation  when we were spiritually connected as “one”. Taking this a step further, I am connected to the universe, yet at times I feel the same disconnect.

I went deep within to my inner self, to my heart for understanding-I did not look for a book or an analyst, I went within. Here is what I understood.

The reason I didn’t always appreciate our connection, is because my ego was the block. My ego could not deal with the connection of spirits as it had enough just to handle one spirit-my spiritual self. The ego therefore needed to block the connection which my inner self calls the  “egoic brick syndrome”. The ego needed to block the connection between me and the universe. The ego cannot handle that I am the universe in person. So, the bricks went up one by one to create this wall of separation.

I went to my egoic self and sent my love to it. I explained that the game was over, there was no need for my ego to work at blocking the true self from all that it is. The bricks can come down.  I explained to the ego that it did not need to fear this change as we could now work in union, we could live together with this reality. This is a change occurring within me as the planetary shift is taking place.

For me it is important to understand what has kept me from understanding my connection to all that is and my connection to others. It is important to know that I can go deep within to answer all my life questions. By going within I am understanding who I am, who is Phil Cannato– unique and one with all that is. That is it for now. Lets see what transpires when we all go deep within to our hearts for understanding. It would be great to hear the answers to your questions as you go deep within.

On Saturday, June 30th, there will be a dedacation of the Judy Cannato Library at River’s Edge in Cleveland, Ohio. Before Judy left us, it was her wish that the books in her study be donated to River’s Edge so that others could benefit from them. For additional information you can go to: www.riversedgecleveland.com



Awakening of the Cosmic Heart

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To The Friends of Phil Cannato Blog

Dear Friends of Challenge of Transformation,

I am going to put the next phase of this blog (discussing Radical Amazement) on hold indefinitely. I am personally going through a transition and I need to withdraw and spend more time “within”. I need to come home to my true self. Taking time to share Judy’s work with all of you has helped me tremendously. In doing so, it has changed the way I view life. I may be in the beginning stage of discovering who I am. Who is Phil Cannato? I need to find out who I am. This is my quest. I need to “awaken”.

By reading and discussing Judy’s work, it has opened new doors. I have begun to look into my heart to find who I am. Judy’s words told me more about her and what a tremendous woman she was, she was more than I ever knew.  She was  person who had “awakened”, her consciousness was expanding and above all, she knew who she was. Now, I need to “awaken,”discover who I am, express my own words and become expanded consciousness.  Judy was a gift to me. I now know that nothing is by chance, nothing is a coincidence. Judy was in my life to place me on the path to discover my identity, to discover who I am, to help me to “awaken”.

To do this, I am going deep into my heart. When I read, Living in the Heart by Drunvalo Melchizedek his words, like those of Judy, helped me to walk this new path. It’s funny, I purchased this book about five years ago and it has been on the shelf  waiting for me.  I’m now ready.

I would like to end this session by sharing a recent meditation, I will do the best to recall and relate my thoughts from my meditation to you.

I sat and visualized one of my most treasured beautiful places, the Grand Canyon. After recalling its beauty, I sent my love to mother earth. I waited, and she sent her love back to me in the form of a dove. I then looked to the sky, saw in my mind’s eye, the galaxies and sent my love to Father Sky. I waited and felt the love of Father Sky coming back to me. I then felt my love as a small sphere within me, I took it down to the throat area and then to the heart. As I was in the heart I could feel it’s softness. It was warm and comfortable in the heart. Then, I walked through a chamber into a cave like structure. There was a fire going and gathered around the fire were tribal leaders from the Mayan, American Indian and Aborigine people. They placed me in the center and then laid their hands upon me. I could feel the love, warmth, and energy. I then moved to another chamberof the heart which was the tiny area where I originated, where all of life originated. I stayed there, bathed in love and  received a tiny part of who I am. I now know I can go into my heart and continue to discover who I am. I can continue to move deep “within”and know the true essence of who I am.

You now know my desire. It is to “awaken” from within.  I would ask you to send energy my way and in turn I will send awakening energy to you. Thank you for helping me to arrive at this juncture in my life.  I will be in touch with you when the time is right.

Again, my email address is: Phil6249@aol.com

I would love to hear from you.

Peace to all,


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Ch. 12 Engaging the Grace We Imagine

As you are all aware, it was as she was writing this chapter, that Judy was diagnosed with cancer. She wrote, ” As of right now, I find no comfort in any belief. What does sustain me is what I know to be true- perhaps not the ultimate truth, but my truth, what I know in my heart. ” I know love, and love never seeks to separate or exclude. I know freedom, and freedom never lets ego and fear have the final say. I know I am not alone, that we are all connected in the web of life, and we feel the connection most powerfully when we operate within a Field of Compassion”.

As I witnessed Judy’s life, I can tell you that she loved what she did. She loved learning, she loved writing, and she loved being able to meet many of you as she traveled and gave workshops. What I also know is that she lived life to the fullest. In my observation , the spark in Judy came from knowing that all she needed to know came from within. The more she was “within”, the more of her consciousness expanded to a point she realized the true essence of who she was. Through the practice of meditation her consciousness expanded and she knew the amazing reality of which  she was a part and her connection to all that is. I experienced Judy’s mystic journey being alive with that reality.

Even with the diagnosis of cancer Judy was able to live in the moment. She was able to take the stance of witness, the ability to allow herself to be in the present moment and allow life to unfold.

Judy is asking me to look within to discover who I am and where  I came from, to what am I a part. She is asking me to take an active role in co-creating with the universe by also going “within” to know myself and the connection I have to all that is. She is asking me to live in the moment and allow life to unfold. A few weeks before her death, she looked me in the eye and told me her transition was in process. She told me to go out and live my life, to live life to the fullest. I believe she is asking all of us to find the true essence of who we are and to live life in the fullest.

Judy began her next book not knowing if she would ever finish it. She did not, but it was life-giving and she needed to try. It was going to be called The Quantum Mystic: Reflections on Being Human. In the first chapter she reflected on her diagnosis of cancer as a time when she had been holding on to the branch of life- and the branch gave away which placed her in a state of “free fall”. She wrote, “Those who choose to live life reflectively often look back at moments in life when their customary support gave way and they began a free-fall with nothing to cushion what appeared to be the inevitable impact. In retrospect these experiences are frequently the most grace-filled moments of life, birthing new insights and revealing emergent capacities that unleash life-giving energy and unprecedented creativity. Primary fear gives way to expanded consciousness and fearless empowerment. The dreadful dying gives over to an unexpected naissance, the rising up of a new consciousness that far surpasses the old”.

I believe Judy may want us to reflect on this paragraph. When did we have an experience of our “life holding branch” give way? How did it feel? What impact is it having on our lives?  I believe Jude was writing that paragraph for me as she has left and I have been clinging on as I am in “free fall”. I want you all to know that during first few months during “free fall” I was paralyzed. But, grace-filled moments arose, life changing energy arrived and with the grace of the Most Holy and Judy’s presence, I have taken steps on a new journey. I am beginning to look within to find myself and life again has begun to bloom.

This is the last chapter. I would like to thank all of you for allowing me to take this journey with you. Let me know your thoughts going forward. Any suggestions or comments will be appreciated. I am planning on beginning Radical Amazement the first Saturday in February, the 4th. My personal email address is: phil6249@aol.com

I will be sending a notice out that morning. This will give us all a chance to catch our breath and invite those who may want to follow this blog.

The action this week is to reflect on a time in our life when life’s branch gave way and we were in”free fall”. It would be interesting to hear all of these stories. I believe it would be uplifting.

I thought I was finished with this writing but today I felt Judy’s presence and there was more to the message. It may be time for some changes. Life is short and it will vanish as quick as a blink of an eye. But we are here and we have life today so lets do it, lets live life to the fullest. Think about what that means! LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST. It may be time to dream. It may be time to look at our life and become all that we dream. It may be time for all of us to wake up and yes, yes,  become who we are ment to be. Lets go for it! As we become the creation we were ment to be, the planet will respond and newness will arise. Before the year is out, lets look at our life, lets embrace the change what ever it might be. I heard a saying that said “champions are born and then unmade”. The message is , its time to go back to our birth, and see who we were ment to be. Once again, I look forward to a Radically Amazing year as we continue our journey in February.

Thank You,


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